Consummated Randomness

In Prague

So I'm here in Praha, a really beautiful city, and school started today. As a rule, I have a lot of reading in my political science class and my language class is well, um...very difficult. Czech is very hard to learn. Overall I am having a good time here, especially when I stay busy and keep my mind occupied. Alas, it is my mind that, when left to wander, is spoiling things for me. I keep being a defeatist and a pessimist and somehow let my mind convince me that Shrezzie is bored (perhaps also with me) and that he is finding 'comfortable' company while I'm away. And then eventually that comfortable company will just drive him emotionally away from me altogether. I fear that the most because, despite what has happened in our past, I cherish him. His is adorable in almost every single way, if not every single way. And despite what my mind is doing to me right now, I am comfortable with him...ultimately comfortable and I trust him...in other words, he makes me feel great and secure (except for right now when im away from him of course). Point is, I don't want to lose him.

Babe, if you're reading this, youre probably tired of hearing this knowing that you aren't at the point yet and wondering if you ever will be, I love you and I'd love to come home in August and be your man and treat you like the prince that you are....(omg, i just realized how cheesy that was when going back over it...but cheesy or not, its raw and how i feel). Muah.

Dobrou nocs. (thats goodnight) because it is midnight here and I have tons of reading left to do before class at 1030am

posted by RPF @ 2:41 PM