Adjusted, finally.
Well let's see...I still have like fifty things to do in the next two weeks so I've decided to procrastinate a little more and write another post. What's worse is that I just read a lot of my past posts in attempt to self-handicap even more and try to forget about those damned lectures. What I realized when reading my posts is that this semester has been very tumultuous (duh!) While reading the posts I was shocked to re-experience some of the events marking this point in my life. I couldn't believe I had been through so much in so little time and listed unevenly between mania and depression. Seeing as I still have approximately three weeks left in this semester and they are bound to be just as chaotic as the other fifteen have been, I'm officially dubbing this semester my bi-polar semester. Frankly I just can't find a better description of the vascillating emotional trip I've been on since closing the door on Mario.
So here I am, on November 28, 2004--two months and twenty-seven days later--finally adjusted to singleness, completely. Sure I miss having a warm body in my bed and I miss having someone always there who knows me inside out, someone who can comfort me if I was to need it, and someone to kiss and hold. But I don't need that and I'm not going to waste my time satiating some of those things if I know it won't be right in the end. No jumping the gun for me. Right now I'm just going to concentrate on finishing this semester up, hanging out with good friends, enjoying the holidays(even though I'll be working through most of them), and going with the flow of things. Whatever wants to happen, will happen. I could be single for two years, or I could be single for just a week more...at this point I'm not concerned with that. Although, there are still those I'm interested in, and if anything pans out I'll make sure to write about it so that I have some happy posts mixed in with the depressing ones.
And by the way...I'm loving this weather, it's getting really close to scarf temperatures.
posted by RPF @ 12:20 AM
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