Consummated Randomness

The profundity of BLAH

So my life is stagnating right now. I'm trapped within a circumambient load of shit. That load of shit would be the numerous papers that all seemed to be due within 3 weeks of each other (I'm in the 2nd week now) and the upcoming final exams and portfolios. Adding to that heap is the ever-demanding tax reports that I have to fill out in order to make Uncle Sam happy; he will be unhappy when he sees that he owes me money. Not only that but I'm also lost in space when it comes to studying in Prague this summer because the last time I checked, we needed like one or two more people to sign up in order for the university to support the trip. I won't find out for sure until tax day. If I am going, it will be time for me to stroll on over to the local third world exploiter and see if I can't exploit them for a full-time job that pays me more than 7 bucks an hour.

As for other things going on in life right now: my dog is smelly, my boyfriend is always busy, my roomates are lazy and bitchy, my parents are trying to hypnotize me in the hopes of setting straight my sexuality, I haven't boozed in forever, I'm broke(nothing new), I didn't last long at the gym routine because studying got in the way, I don't know what I want to do in life, I may not be intelligent and/or motivated enough to get my ph.D, I did manage to get my ass in gear and declare a minor, it's TAPS, that stands for Theories and Policies of Sexuality which will suit my academic career purposes perfectly seeing as I want to go into minority politics and write my dissertation on the politics of sexuality here in America, my tan is getting better due to the beautiful spring weather here in gville, dreading the summer because it sucks in gville, I smoked a lot of pot yesterday because I needed the break from stressing over schoolwork, my room is a mess, my closet never seems to have enough clothes to suit me(even though it's bulging trying to accomodate everything in it), I'm too sexual, people don't understand me, I don't understand me, I love writing, but not under the pressure of making an A or not for the semester, I registered for classes in fall--got most everything i wanted, I'm realizing how much I love to enumerate things while I write, I started watching cable news more often again, I realized all over again while I stopped watching it in the first place, I had two nights in a row where I went off on political tirades with my friends, I decided that I want to meet a beautiful Czech guy, learn his language, fall desperately in love, like in classical Shakespearian ways, elope with him, move to Prague permanently leaving behind this ever-dissappointing country, I tried to reassure people that I am not as anti-american as my profound political beliefs would make less read people think. And I have come to the realization that everything in my life turns into politics and that this is not a problem because I understand the importance that politics plays in my life. For all of you who I annoy with my political side-trips, I am sorry, it is for the best though and you will thank me for it one day. How is that for some cockiness?

ungh, I'm just so blah right now

posted by RPF @ 6:23 PM